God knew the confused state that I would be in, and the searching questions that I would be struggling with in the months ahead.
After what seemed like a prophetic dream one July night, a tune floated into my mind along with the phrase ‘You are my Lord’ that morning and stayed.
Why am I feeling unfulfilled?
What am I doing with the graces given me?
What should I do with the dreams and desires embedded in my heart?
Die to self.
Surrender your dreams and desires.
Make the LORD your sole satisfaction.
The past few months have seen several cycles of deaths and rebirths of my identity and aspirations, where I was cleansed and rid of the things that formed a huge part of my identity.
Each cycle of death leads to a more complete cleansing each time, as God helped me to anchor my mind and soul in Him through this psalm set in the tune that He has given.
I have no good thing apart from YHWH.
He alone is my portion and my cup.
He makes my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.
I keep my eyes always on YHWH.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
YHWH will fill me with joy in His presence,
with eternal pleasures at His right hand.
It seems I’m reaching a turning point, which may well be more than a point, a point that potentially stretches several months or perhaps a couple of years.
LORD, as You cleanse and reshape me, may I be a purer vessel for Your use, according to Your purposes, and in Your time.
A gift from You, through You, for You – Psalm 16 in song
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