Leading an ordinary life is difficult, not that my life was extraordinary.
Actually all our lives are both extraordinary and ordinary.
Extraordinary because each day is by the grace of God.
Ordinary because it seems routine and mundane, with nothing that is characteristic of oneself as a unique individual.
I was used to being one of the best in the things I do, since young. And yes, with that came acknowledgement. I felt alive, not because of the acknowledgement but because of the opportunities to exercise and practise what I was good at.
“I was made to do this.” This was how I felt.
After three decades, I’m now in a place where I’m involved in things which, in my opinion, can be done by almost anyone, anyone who’s responsible and willing to work. This is what I meant by ordinary. Yet I know this is an extraordinary experience God is having me go through, because it does something extraordinary to my heart.
If one were to see it in a pessimistic way, one can say the heart has grown cold and indifferent. Sometimes, dead.
If we were to see it in a more positive light, hopefully the way that God wants us to see and intended, it would be that our heart is freed from the things that gave us false significance, when the supreme significance should come from our identity being God’s child and servant, or perhaps not the servant bit. ‘Cos someone reminded me recently that God does not need us to do anything for Him – especially if our significance and well-being derives from needing to do something.
It has been almost 3 years – this extraordinary ordinary life.
The days where my heart seems to be contented with being ‘ordinary’ seems to be increasing, albeit still far and between. I pray such days will increase and thus bring delight to my King.
Faithful God, help me stay anchored in You in these in-between times, and remain as Your faithful servant. Help me continue to trust in You that no time is wasted, even in the wilderness and wasteland, for You are doing an extraordinary work in my inner life.
Thank you for being patient and gentle with me, even in Your discipline.
Thank you for being with me, in each step of this difficult journey called life.
WEH PSALMS 